Tuesday, May 19, 2009
At my current state of 15 years old I am still in the process of findind who I am. Although I do know who and what I want to be when I am older I still have not reached a level in life I wish to reach. I already know that I want to be a preacher when I am older but I must fisrt grow stronger in the word of God if I am going to lead others to the word. I cannot help others if I myself am at a level in spirituality that I yet to reach. I know that along the way I will be criticized for what I do and even now I am criticized. I am criticized because my morals are above their actions, I am criticized because I do what is right. I have been told that I am to uptight and that I do not live life enough but the truth is that they have not lived life. I am happy without the world and instead of recieving praise I am insulted. Though I will not be hindered instead it just feeds the fire in me to do better because know that in the end that I will have a made a diference in others lives and i can't let others get in the way of that. The reason i try to live a good Christian life is because I believe that that is why I was created. I was created to live a life that would please God. And that is my quest to be all that i can be in God.
Although I have never met him he is my mentor. He lived on this earth to set an example of how we should live and he was God's son. He lived a perfect life and although I am far from perfect I strive to be like him. A tool he has left for me is his teachings a.k.a the Holy Bible. He has taught me to live a lifestyle that brings joy to ones heart and because of him I can forever rejoice with him in heaven. He has brought peace to my heart and the world. And he is the perfect mentor because when I falter he will not. Humans make mistakes but he can't so he is the perfect mentor for one to have and since he knows every thing about you he cannot fail you. Who is this great mentor? Well it is Jesus Christ of course! He is my mentor by choice and by his grace my father.
My shadow is well my shadow. I consider my past my shadow in a way because no matter what your past will always be there following you where ever you go.And to me my past is not a happy thing. My life is not fillel with torment and failure but is a past full of dissapoitment. I was not always a good kid so I brought alot pain towards my family especailly my mom and even thought I have changed and my mom has forgiven me my past is still there in my mind. But I will not let it overcome me because like said I am a new person
Although a trikster is usually one person in my story it is defferent. I have an extremly large family so I have a lot og little cousins and although they don't brign mischeif in my life they are mischeivious. They bring joy to me whenever I see them. I always come to the realization that we should all let out our inner child every once in a while.